Musnad Ahmad 27175

Translation

✧ "Did you not buy your riding camel?" I said: Yes, O Prophet of Allah. He said: "What kept you back?" I said: By Allah, if I were sitting before any other person among the people, I would have come out of his displeasure with an excuse, for I have been given ability in argument! Ya'qub said, from the son of my brother Ibn Shihab: "I would have seen that I come out of his displeasure with an excuse." In the hadith of 'Uqayl: "I would come out of his displeasure with an excuse," and in it: "Soon Allah will make you angry with me, and if I tell you a true story you will be displeased with me, but I hope for Allah's forgiveness in it." Then he returned to the hadith of 'Abd al-Razzaq - "But I know, O Prophet of Allah, [that if] I tell you today something that you will be displeased with and it is true, then I hope for Allah's forgiveness in it; and if I tell you today a story that will please you and it is false, then soon Allah may expose me. By Allah, O Prophet of Allah, I was never more comfortable, nor lighter in equipment, than when I stayed behind from you." He said: "As for this one, he has told you the truth. Stand until Allah decides in your case." So I stood up, and people from my tribe followed me, rebuking me. They said: By Allah, we do not know that you ever committed a sin before this. Why did you not make an excuse to the Prophet ﷺ with which he would be pleased with you? For the Prophet's ﷺ seeking forgiveness would have come after your sin. Why do you put yourself in a position where you do not know what will be decided for you? They kept rebuking me until I thought of going back and denying myself. I said: Did anyone else say this same statement? They said: Yes. Hilal b. Umayyah and Murarah - meaning Ibn Rabi'ah. They mentioned [to me] two righteous men who had witnessed Badr, and in them there was a model for me. I said: By Allah, I will never return to him in this matter, nor will I deny myself. The Prophet ﷺ forbade the people from speaking to us three. I would go out to the market and no one would speak to me. The people became strangers to us, even the walls became strangers to us, even the land became strange to us, until it was not the land we knew. I was the strongest of my companions, so I would go out and walk around the markets, and I would come to the mosque and enter, and I would come to the Prophet ﷺ and greet him, and I would say: Did he move his lips in returning the greeting? When I stood to pray facing a pillar and turned toward my prayer, he looked at me with the corner of his eyes, and when I looked at him he turned away from me. My two companions became subdued and wept night and day, not raising their heads. While I was walking around the market, a Christian man came with food of his to sell, saying: Who will direct me to Ka'b b. Malik? The people began pointing at me, so he came to me with a letter from the king of Ghassan, and in it was: To proceed, it has reached me that your companion has alienated you and removed you, and you are not in a house of waste or humiliation. Join us and we will console you. I said: This is also part of the trial and evil. So I kindled the oven for it and burned it in it. When forty nights had passed, a messenger from the Prophet ﷺ came to me and said: Withdraw from your wife. I said: Should I divorce her? He said: No, but do not approach her. The wife of Hilal came and said: O Messenger of Allah, Hilal b. Umayyah is a weak old man. Do you permit me to serve him? He said: Yes, but he must not approach you. She said: O Prophet of Allah, he has no movement for anything, he has been weeping night and day since his affair occurred. Ka'b said: When the trial became long for me, I climbed over the wall of Abu Qatadah - and he was my paternal cousin - and greeted him, but he did not return my greeting. I said: I adjure you by Allah, O Abu Qatadah, do you know that I love Allah and His Messenger? He remained silent. Then I said: I adjure you by Allah, O Abu Qatadah, do you know that I love Allah and His Messenger? He said: Allah and His Messenger know best. He said: I could not control myself and I wept, then I climbed over the wall going out. When fifty nights had passed since the Prophet ﷺ forbade the people from speaking to us, I prayed the dawn prayer on the roof of a house of ours, then I sat in the position about which Allah, Mighty and Majestic, said: The earth had become straitened for us despite its vastness, and our own selves had become straitened for us, when I heard a caller from the top of Sal' mountain: Rejoice, O Ka'b b. Malik! So I fell down in prostration, and I knew that Allah had brought us relief. Then a man came galloping on a horse to give me the good news, and the voice was faster than his horse. I gave him my two garments as a good-news gift, and wore two other garments. Our repentance had been revealed to the Prophet ﷺ at the last third of the night. Umm Salamah said that evening: O Prophet of Allah, shall we not give good news to Ka'b b. Malik? He said: Then the people would crush you and prevent you from sleeping the rest of the night. Umm Salamah was kind and devoted in my affair, grieving for my situation. I went to the Prophet ﷺ and found him sitting in the mosque with the Muslims around him, and he was shining like the shining of the moon, and when he was pleased with something, he would shine. I came and sat before him, and he said: Rejoice, O Ka'b b. Malik, in the best day that has come upon you since the day your mother gave birth to you! I said: O Prophet of Allah, is it from Allah or from you? He said: Rather from Allah, Mighty and Majestic. Then he recited to them: Allah has certainly turned in mercy to the Prophet and the Emigrants and the Helpers until he reached: Indeed, Allah is the Accepter of repentance, the Merciful. He said: And about us was also revealed: Fear Allah and be with the truthful. I said: O Prophet of Allah, part of my repentance is that I will never speak except the truth, and that I will divest myself of all my wealth as charity to Allah, Mighty and Majestic, and to His Messenger. He said: Keep some of your wealth, for that is better for you. I said: Then I will keep my share in Khaybar. He said: Allah, Mighty and Majestic, has not bestowed upon me any blessing after Islam greater in my soul than my truthfulness to the Messenger of Allah ﷺ when I was truthful to him, I and my two companions, lest we be liars and perish as they perished. I hope that Allah, Mighty and Majestic, has not tested anyone in truthfulness like He tested me. I have not intentionally told any lie since. And I hope that Allah will protect me in what remains. [Thus in the edition of the Islamic Treasure Society, and in the edition of the Risalah Foundation: expedition. Thus in the edition of the Islamic Treasure Society, and what is in brackets is not present in the edition of the Risalah Foundation. Thus in the edition of the Islamic Treasure Society, and what is in brackets is not present in the edition of the Risalah Foundation. Thus in the edition of the Islamic Treasure Society, and in the edition of the Risalah Foundation: the walls. Thus in the edition of the Islamic Treasure Society, and what is in brackets is not present in the edition of the Risalah Foundation.]

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